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Friday, July 10

God is God and I Am Not

Never pay back evil for evil to anyone. Do things in such a way that everyone can see you are honorable. Do your part to live in peace with everyone, as much as possible. Dear friends, never avenge yourselves. Leave that for God. For it is written, “I will take vengeance; I will repay those who deserve it,” says the Lord. Don’t let evil get the best of you, but conquer evil by doing good deeds. ~ Rom. 12:17-19, 21

Yesterday morning, during my God time, these were the verses that jumped out at me. I finished reading, and literally said out loud, “Blah, blah, blah.” Yesterday was not an easy day for my husband and I. We were put in the position of having to deal with consequences that came from trusting someone we shouldn’t have, who subsequently betrayed and hurt us deeply.

Even though I’d forgiven this person, and turned them over to God, I didn’t want to read the above verses. I wasn’t in the mood. I knew what we’d soon be facing, and my stomach was churning. Nevertheless, I prayed and I asked God for His mercy, grace and favor, to get us through the day.

Not long after that, when we were in the midst of our “stuff,” we abruptly and unexpectedly came face to face with this person. To the best of our knowledge, this person was not going to be there, and was in fact there for a different reason. We were stunned. There was our enemy, the one who’d so casually betrayed and hurt us, the one we’d hoped we’d never see again. The one we certainly didn’t expect to see on this day.

As I sat there, feeling as if we’d been sucker-punched, I was questioning God, why? Why are we face to face with our enemy? I mean, God is the God of the Universe! He is the Lord God Almighty! He is omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent! He could have done something, right? Well, He did. He reminded me of these Scripture verses I’d read just that morning. He’d spoken to me through His Word, and reminded me that He was in control, and that even if I didn’t see what was happening, this was in His hands.

Phew! I gained some peace by this and hope that though this situation was excruciating, it wasn’t the end, and that if we remain honorable, God would use it for good in our lives. I believe that. I also believe that God is good, and He can be trusted, with my life, with my heart and with my hurt. Sometimes I just need to remember that God is God and I am not. And I am so grateful that He loves me enough to teach, guide and correct me through His Word and through other sources. I am so grateful that He loves me enough to accept me where I am, but He loves me too much to let me stay there.

My child, don’t reject the Lord’s discipline, and don’t be upset when he corrects you. For the Lord corrects those he loves, just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights. ~ Prov. 3:11-12


lynnrush said...

Amen, Sister. I guess God thought, "Hmmm, Lauryn needs to see this person." You're right. God is good. His loving hand teaches and guides us, sometimes in directions that surprise and confuse us, that's for sure.

Press on, my friend.

Blessed Mom of 8 said...


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Love you!

valerie lynn said...

Lauryn, (I simply love your new name) I know exactly how you felt girl! You don't think you will run into the person who hurt and betrayed you and them WHAM! You run right into them. I believe God is letting us know without a doubt that He has everything in control. We have to search our hearts, ask for His forgiveness, forgive the one who hurt us and then forgive ourselves for sinning against God. This is quite a process but praise God He is mighty and stronger than we are! Praise Him that He has everything under control.

I believe you handled the whole situation with grace and self control my friend. Praise the Lord!

(BTW I love the Nelson Review Program. This was my first book review and I was so nervous about what to write! Thank you for your kind and thoughtful words. They encouraged me more than you know!)

Love you Lauyrn!

smdavid said...

There's a good ebook that's free to help pastors and their wives with discouragement and burnout. You can find it at It's quite helpful.

RickNiekLikeBikes said...

I've faced that one before--Romans was also part of our equation but I am so grateful for the memory of them and God's faithfulness today.

Terri Tiffany said...

God is God and I'm not. I like this so much. I have found myself in similar situations, awkward, uncomfortable--not happy.
But God allows it for a reason. I'm glad for you he reminded you of those verses.